About 13 months ago, I found out I was pregnant. Some of you are thinking "What's the big deal, there are a lot of women who got pregnant in 2012 and still getting pregnant?" Well, I'm looking to share my story and experiences, especially to those who have struggled as I have. I didn't think I was going to get pregnant and was getting ready to look at my options for adoption. There are other women out there like me who had to go through infertility and wonder why it was so difficult for them to get pregnant while others seemed to have no problem, and in fact seemed to take it for granted.
I was purposely trying to get pregnant for 2 years before I did infertility. I had problems and couldn't exactly figure out why with my OBGYNs (yes several of them). Until one day I decided to ask just one more and they said it's obvious I wasn't ovulating, may have further problems and that I need to go to infertility. I finally went to infertility and found out one of my problems was I had PCOS and I was definitely not ovulating. How many women can relate to that? I felt the relief of finally knowing, but also sadness at the same time. It was up and down for 7 months of things looking like it was going to work, but then the next time it didn't, and increasing dosages, and wondering what wasn't working properly.
Well, little did I know on Christmas 2011 that I was pregnant. I thought I was getting my period though because I was cramping. A couple of weeks later when I found I was, I had to go to the Emergency Room because of my cramps. Everything turned out fine. It wasn't infertility treatments alone that got me there though. In November I decided to tackle on my PCOS by the right kind of exercise and trying a low glycemic diet. I had consulted a nutritional specialist and joined Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu. And most of all, I surrendered to God every single day and every single moment when I felt like breaking down. I also tried to accept if pregnancy wasn't for me, then I would adopt (I still am going to adopt) and started researching and thinking about making an adoption fund (any Dave Ramsey fans out there?).
There is hope for those out there struggling. It isn't easy, but there are people out there going through what you are. We just don't know it because we shut ourselves from the world because we feel like no one will understand. Although people think it's harmless, I know the stabbing pain when someone asks "When are you going to start having kids?" Or "Hey you need to start making those babies!" Or some type of comment like that. Although said in fun, it can stab. A lot of people out there are ignorant about this issue.
Also let me just rant here. If there is someone struggling with PCOS or any other type of infertility condition: just because we have a period doesn't mean we ovulatee or that we ovulate normally. So before you start sounding like a know it all like "well you ovulate when this and that and blah blah blah" maybe you should shut up and do your research because even my Infertility Specialist didn't know if and when I would ovulate. Tracking my temperature didn't work either. Some of you need to learn how to be more sensitive and choose your words wisely. You never know what the person is struggling with.
I was purposely trying to get pregnant for 2 years before I did infertility. I had problems and couldn't exactly figure out why with my OBGYNs (yes several of them). Until one day I decided to ask just one more and they said it's obvious I wasn't ovulating, may have further problems and that I need to go to infertility. I finally went to infertility and found out one of my problems was I had PCOS and I was definitely not ovulating. How many women can relate to that? I felt the relief of finally knowing, but also sadness at the same time. It was up and down for 7 months of things looking like it was going to work, but then the next time it didn't, and increasing dosages, and wondering what wasn't working properly.
Well, little did I know on Christmas 2011 that I was pregnant. I thought I was getting my period though because I was cramping. A couple of weeks later when I found I was, I had to go to the Emergency Room because of my cramps. Everything turned out fine. It wasn't infertility treatments alone that got me there though. In November I decided to tackle on my PCOS by the right kind of exercise and trying a low glycemic diet. I had consulted a nutritional specialist and joined Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu. And most of all, I surrendered to God every single day and every single moment when I felt like breaking down. I also tried to accept if pregnancy wasn't for me, then I would adopt (I still am going to adopt) and started researching and thinking about making an adoption fund (any Dave Ramsey fans out there?).
There is hope for those out there struggling. It isn't easy, but there are people out there going through what you are. We just don't know it because we shut ourselves from the world because we feel like no one will understand. Although people think it's harmless, I know the stabbing pain when someone asks "When are you going to start having kids?" Or "Hey you need to start making those babies!" Or some type of comment like that. Although said in fun, it can stab. A lot of people out there are ignorant about this issue.
Also let me just rant here. If there is someone struggling with PCOS or any other type of infertility condition: just because we have a period doesn't mean we ovulatee or that we ovulate normally. So before you start sounding like a know it all like "well you ovulate when this and that and blah blah blah" maybe you should shut up and do your research because even my Infertility Specialist didn't know if and when I would ovulate. Tracking my temperature didn't work either. Some of you need to learn how to be more sensitive and choose your words wisely. You never know what the person is struggling with.
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